Angel Wings

Do you ever wonder if only humans get angel wings? I like to believe that pets can go to heaven as well, if there is a heaven. 1 year ago today, June 21, 2010 our precious kitty Cosmo passed away. That was one of the worst days of my life. Some might say that he was just an animal or just a pet, but no he was so much more. He was a companion, he was a member of our family. Since we do not have children Cosmo always go the full extent of our attention. We planned things around what would be best for him. The house still feels so damn empty without him here. Sometimes we catch a glimpse of something of out the corner of our eye, and we think it's him. It's happened to both of us many times, it's almost a heart breaking feeling when reality hits..that no it wouldn't be him on top of the fridge..or no it's not him on the window sill. Today, I will try not to cry because I miss him so damn much, I will try to smile because I had the chance to love him for 10.5 years, and Matt had the chance to love him from a kitten, for 14 years. I remember on our wedding day when we came home..I squealed excitedly to Cosmo, "that I was finally his mommy for real." Yea he was my furbaby and I was his human momma. Our 6 year wedding anniversary was Saturday and Matt and I were laughing remembering how funny we thought it would have been to have him wear a little tux at our wedding, which we would have done if he wouldn't have been scared of crowds..or car sick as well lol. He had to stay at home and wait for our return. I could go on for hours about how much it meant to me and how much it hurt for him to leave us, but I like to think he is somewhere amazing watching down on us. I have never shared with anyone what went through my mind when I found him and realize he had left this Earth...and even a year later I cannot write those details. I doubt I will ever want to speak or type them. We have checked out many headstones for him and I think we have finally picked the one and have a good idea of what we want written on it. Whenever we get it ordered and get it set I am sure I will be posting pictures of that. I could post thousands of pictures and many videos of Cosmo but I selected just a few pictures to share. I am so thankful to have the videos and pictures to look at when I miss my boy.